Finding yourself(Off topic) lolz...

Finding yourself is a natural process of human life.

Some people will find it hard.

Some people will find himself/herself lost during the process.

Some people will die for it.

Some people just give up and follow the path that others choose for them.

Some people will run away from the answer which they trying to find and lye to death.

etc.

Finding who you are is something really meaningful. If not, no one will throw away his/her job and go somewhere far and find who himself and herself is. And you know what happen if you didn't find yourself? Answer is - sooner or later you will lost in the world and tried asking yourself who you are. LOLz..what a rubbish answer ei? No need you to tell me, because i think so too. HOHO~

Further after lost what happen? Ans: Suicide!WOOHOO..isn't that sounds fun?(I think so)

Some people ask me whether i love to answer my own questions? The answer is YES!lolz..

Oh..oh...oh...talking about suicide. Those who wanna attend suicide, let me tell you. GO AHEAD. WHO BOTHER? You are just someone who is so irresponsible and jerk or bitch..or homose...whatever. lolz. Your mom used so much energy to give birth on you this bastard who just wanna kill yourself in this little situation which we CALLED life. I'm here to say : "Poor mom, what a good bastard you give birth to."

Before you jump or eat whatever stuff. Hey, remember..

If you are not married : mom, dad, brothers and sisters who needed you and always give you supports.

If you are married : Of course your families and ur NOW OWNED family too. Your children, your husband who need you as much as you need them before.

PS: Those who don't have children of your own, i am sorry....although i dunno what i am sorry for..just felt like saying..XD

If divorce : LOL..why you wanna die because of that jerk or bitch who don't even bother about you. Get a life. You deserve better and show him/her that who is better at last? Kick their ass. Nothing to ashame of that. You go die for wat?lolz.. think about it.

Extented: Or maybe you can wrote him a letter told him "I will be back for you!!" Beloved xxxx using your blood. Then suicide?..that sounds cool..lolz..i'm just kidding..(Forgive me, i watched too much horror articles)XD

Oppsy, where i stop again?

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i am extremely sorry to tell you all that .......... i forgot what i wanna talk about dy. So..who cares....just go find who you are la!! NOW go go go....kick*

HAHAHA..GOODNITE!

PS: Love your life.

xoxo

Lost memory's alvis = =

遺棄的城市

我..

看到的太陽是黑的，

看到的路是歪的，

空氣是灰的，

走在街上的我 只有一人，

周圍沒有任何聲音，

沒有人遇見我的存在，

我也對他人的不存在 也毫無疑問，

在眼前看到的東西 就好像照片一樣 動也不動，

雨水灑在我的臉 卻沒有感覺，

我哭了 但卻聼不到哭聲，

我喊了 卻沒人回我，

我跑了 卻沒有目標，

我跌傷了 卻不感到痛，

我看到血 卻嗅不到血腥味，

看到樹在搖 我卻感覺不到風，

打雷了 我卻沒有地方可躲，

當我擡頭看時，

才發現，

整個城市裏

只有..

我 與 我的影子的存在..

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人人都有低落的時候，卻只有兩种方式解決：（應該吧？= =）

1，幸運的話 你有你的朋友/家人撐你腰 當你的光 幫你照亮整片天

2，不幸的話 只有靠自己 站起來 點把火 將自己未來黑暗的路 一點一滴的 點亮

>> 還有別的方法可以給我發表！我熱烈歡迎！^^

PS:不要問我爲什麽寫這篇吧~ 就是有感覺這麽寫啦 哈哈（你們應該明白喉？呵呵）

我媽媽與我的那一天晚上...

還記得 那天晚上 我家的水龍頭漏水了.

我 走過 看到媽媽弄水龍頭中...

我:媽，你衝啥？

媽:是在弄水龍頭你看不到哦？還問= =

我:都滴水了..爲什麽不叫人來弄？

媽:其實漏水時，我們還能自己弄就不要叫別人弄啊~ 外加 你懂其實我們慢慢弄 有一個轉彎點是可以停止漏水嗎？

我:知道阿.可是.....好吧，你自己慢慢弄吧 哈

媽:嗯，晚安。

我:晚安。

當我還沒離開，現場立刻就..

媽媽，轉呀轉~轉呀轉~卡！！水 就這樣 沙~沙~沙~ 的噴出來！(▔口▔"")

媽:啊~~~~！！！

媽媽跑好快出去関外面的 主機..

我當時看到這麽多水 也不懂要怎麽辦..

其實還蠻幸災樂禍的...呵呵

猜猜我把水都干嘛了？嘻嘻嘻嘻...

我把60% 流出來的水都拿來洗腳(羞)....其實感覺很爽的說 哈哈哈哈!

第二天，媽媽還是叫人來修好了= =

囧..

早聼我說不去弄他不就好了 也不必儘快叫人來弄XD

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對掰了的18嵗 真情告白

我的18嵗!!!

我們 說好的幸福呢??

你這樣就掰了 真不負責任也!!!

18嵗!!

記得要跟別的主人說掰掰在走哦!

因爲你的主人會很想念你的!!

畢竟你也陪了他過了365 天 主人要在這裡說聲 ：謝謝!!

雖然18嵗 有晴天 雨天 夏天 冬天??- -我不懂冬天是什麽感覺 就冷吧..外加 陰天!!

可是 他還是覺得你對他好溫柔 好體貼 常常聼他罵 你這個爛18!沒有你也罷! 哈哈 不好意思啦~

可是我還是很愛你的哦!!

你聼到了嗎!!!!!

我沒有再哭哦

我很堅強

你也要堅強哦!

掰掰了

我的18嵗...

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駕車心得

本來今天打算寫些很傷心的東東..可是還是算了吧！改天吧！

説到這個駕車的事情 就囧掉！

今天看到一個死白痴 一心只想駕快車 可是又沒帶種的人 就是垃圾嘛！

開車...啦啦啦啦~ (我心情愉快)

突然間 就 >>> 打個燈直接靠過來！

我：（用力踩停！） 超！他現在是想怎樣？！（對不起 有點失禮 哈哈）

好！算了！我不計較..

他就在我前面開..可是...

他開呀~

開呀的~

就開到路的中央！！

我：喂！喂！有種就插他們中間上阿！不然你在我們馬路中間是怎樣？！我又不能超越你！我隔壁的車也不能超越你。至少給各答案嘛~ = =

那時我隔壁的車跟我同條綫也..還轉頭過去跟他笑 哈哈XD

之後那輛車快到了交通燈前面時 又突然 <<<<< 打燈立刻轉回去 隔壁的車嚇死..

我想問：先生，原來是可以這樣開車的哦？？

之後我快快把他撇在我的車后 因爲他前面 那輛車開太慢 我怕他又要出招！ 哈哈XD

結果....我一看后鏡....>>>>> 他又開始了 = =

我踩了油門快閃人啊~~~ >"<

希望不要太多這種駕車人士好不好？ @@!!!

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Break the rules : Love Chapter 2!!!

What do people think about love??Some say love is a river. Some say love a silly song. Some say love is all around us. It leads us out from where we belong. Some say love is hearing laughter in the rain. But on the upper east side, we all know love is pain.

Haha, so enough of all that phrases, i'll take it for granted that each one of you had finished my first "love" story. And now this is the Second "love" letter. Chapter 2!!

Okay,lets get started. Last time i remember i scold kinda lots about boys and it seems like its all boysssss' faults that causes breaking between couples. What i should say is that, it not all about boys OK???>"<

Before you start reading please knowing that i don't mean to write this and all of this is searching on web stuff. Some is i who add in. lol. So, hope you people don't get mad after reading because i don't mean it.

Firstly - Those girls that depends on bf money!

Hey girls, if u just started the relationship with your bf please please please please!! STOP! depends on your bf money. Of course include those who had already in relationship for a long time.

The money that they spend is not theirs, so you are spending his parents money instead of his.Even if the money is really his own, so what?! do you feel good spending it?? Because earning money isn't easy if you have been working before. Don't be so cheap. I know i know,you so gonna say that some boys also cheap. Thats correct, but not much of them out there.

By the way, your bf is an idiot if he keep paying for you.Good luck to him and i think he'll grow up someday. If he is clever, you will be dump immediately after he is fed up!!I meant it. Boys need a gf isn't hoping you to use his money and i don't think you girl would like your bf to use your money right? Everyone do have feeling and is not like boys are different. They are gentlemen. Nah, there will be plenty of nag* nag* nag* after that in front of all his friends. You like that?? I don't think so. Just for girls to know that. Is not that only girls would talk about their bf in front of their girl friends but boys too.

If you need money, why look for a bf? Go for a job isn't it better? So better think about it,girls. =)

Secondly - Spending too much time!!

Girls should know that boys should have time for their own. He is so young and you are asking for his 24hours. That is SO NOT the way to do it. They didn't spend time with you even just for 1 hours doesn't mean they don't miss you or don't love you. They DO!! And they just need friends and times for their own stuff but not all for you alone. SO AS YOU!!

When girls needed time, boy gives. When boys needed times, girls kick their ass. lol. After that they will start bombarding boys with tonne of questions. Even wife is not so selfish asking their husband to stay with them for 24hours. What do you ask from boys? seven eleven?? and they are not your pet,bird! If you love your bf, PLEASE trust them! Not lock them inside a cage and release them when you think you want it. And TIMES UP go back to the cage. BANG! Damn it. That is so unfair. Sometimes they even given up their sleep for you and you still think that these are not enough and you want more.

For boys we think that, we are together..we have lots of time to spend together why you need to make it like today is the last day?? Is actually hard for boys to approach a girl as much as a girl approaches a boy. He need to make sure he really like you before he approaches if he is really a nice guy. If he is flirty then i think you should have know Whatever he is. But guys usually think a lot before he wanted you to be his gf. So girls, why not just give your bf some space to breath? You know, actually some phrases did make sense : "The more you hold onto your bf and never let him out, the more he wanna fly away and see the beauty of the world outside his cage."

Give each other some space, take a breath, trust your bf, love him and appreciate him. He will love you more and more each day. If he really wanna leave you, don't sad..is his lose because he give up on someone so nice like you. And you will get someone better than him. =)

Lastly,lol..sorry..i am too lazy to write so much. So this is the last one i wrote. XD - is about touching your bf/gf heart.

Please boys and girls. Touching your bf/gf heart isn't hard. Just give some advise. Simple advise can make his/her day. Just said some word that can make your bf/gf happy when he/she is sad. Is simple and not long. These example is for girls to boys. Can do it vise versa if you wanted. lol.

For example : "Is ok dear, you still got me." "You know i love you." "Don't worry, i will always be with you." "I miss your smile,dear. " "hugs" "muackss" "I can stay with you till you are happy." "Hey dear,see me :D. Is my smile sweet?haha." "Sometimes ppl do sad, i know that dear. You are sad, i am sad. I'm you. I will keep smile to you until you smile back.haha. ;P" and etc.............

Boys are idiot, they can be convince easily. Just some idiot words make them feel so much that they love you more. If you leave me alone, he will think that actually you don't like him. {What is he needed a gf for? hurting himself more? why should he have this kind of hurt? He don't deserve it! He's better without you. Maybe is time to end it.} That is all the stuff that boys think if they been left out when he is sad or angry. I don't know about girls. Maybe you should tell me about it. haha.

Before i end, there is always some advises for lovers.
(This time is for those who are going to break)

- If a guy do wanna leave you, their is no ways for you to stop him. And the more you try the more you get hurts, trust me. Let them go. =)

- If girls do wanna leave you, trust me they make it so obvious that you don't wanna know. They will open the door and kick you out! Right girls? haha.XD

PS: I am sorry if i hurt you somewhere in this passage. SORRY! :) i don't mean to hurt you. Hope you all understand.

Okay..until next time.
x.o.x.o

Bye.

Smile =)

Mummy's smile is always the best. Her smiles make our days better. Her smiles lighten up our unhappiness. Her smiles always stayed with us whenever we are lonely, helpless, dying, freaking, selfless and etc. This morning i saw a mum who is looking at her children there drawing. She smiled. She is having the most beautiful smile that we couldn't see it in front of our classmate or schoolmate. Her smile is so loving, caring, touching, soft, elegance and most important that the smile is simple. Mummy smiles is always the best for us as a children. Nothing more lovely than that. =)

Friend's smile which we usually see :
- nice
- gorgeous
- moody
- loving
- caring
- helpful
- sweet
- happy
- cute?

Underneath our friends' smile(not often)so dun worry..haha :
- sad
- moodless
- broken hearted
- fake
- there is something i want from you.
- what a lame joke
- Boring~~
- Never wanna be with you again.
- etc etc etc.......

THE END

Love?

Lets define love :
Love is the most spectacular,indescribable, deep euphoric feeling for someone. Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete. Love is overused in today's world, people say they love someone because of the way they look or their body. That isn't love. Love is when you can't do anything without thinking about that person, you always want to be with them.

I found out that nowadays the word "love" indeed is overused. HEY GUYS!!Are you sure you really in love with that person? Or just like? Love is hard to explain in word,and i could say that mostly boys DON'T know what is love. If not they would not dump their ex girlfriends and goes with others and told them that they love her. MOST of the BOYS love girl because of their APPEARANCE!! I meant it girls...i do meant what i said. Sometimes boys just said "love" for FUN!! Shit rite? So you should test him whether he really into you before getting together. :) [PS:Don't ask me how to test,think yourself la.Because only u know what kind of boys you hope to have wat..lol]

Talking about this,yesterday i spend kinda lots of time chatting with Francesca who is now in sydney about love. Don't blame me. Because i am having about 1 years holiday after A level before entering uni. lol. SO!!!!i have plenty of time gossip here and there and finding new funs for myself. If not i will craps within 5 months. lol. Sorry,ca. i meant it. haha. By the way,we both agree that boys are indeed no good things. I'm a boy too. So who cares. lol. Dirty-minded. And she is in love been single NOW! I din mean always. HAHA! ME?..as me,what i would say now is that i really really really not into any like and love stuff because i am ***** ****** ..blerks. (PS:i will only told that two words to someone i am close and if they ask.HAHA..:P)

Actually parents are true though, love is not really for students like us. Still too young to get involved into somethings so COMPLICATED! Wasting time and hurting each others. lol. I admit that i don't like that kind of feeling of been hurts. And hurting someone is the WORST. What a JERK! I admit i am not good. What a BAD-ASS i'm. So i'm sorry. :( I admit but did you guys admit? Think it yourself in your heart.

I learned my lessons from my friends. Thanks,i really appreciated. :)

So,BOYS..please make sure you really into that girls before you start approaching. As GIRLS becareful..haha..;) For those who is now in relationship,take care. You should appreciate what u have now. Don't break up just by one quarrel. Single love is harsh. Loving each others is really somethings greater than anything else because some people won't even met their's in their whole life. haha. For those whose girlfriend is gorgeous : HEY!DUDE,she like you,you should appreciate because she is into you!!Don't control her and you should tell her that you somehow will scare that she will be taken by someone else better than you. If she really love you, she know how you feel. And she know what to do. Mostly girls are UNDERSTANDING!! Boys are usually not.(I think so)..lol..

For those who is not in relationship now. Don't sad. and DON'T rush..get a life..there are plenty of things you need to learn before you got into relationship. Open your big big eyes,look around..you would learn somethings slowly. hehe. Maybe love just there waiting for you. Or it is far but lovely. Who knows?? =)

okayyyyyy,until next time. TATA.

Take care everyone,have a pleasant and lovely SATURDAY!♥

第一篇：回憶（college）

對不起啊大家 習慣在無名用中文寫了 所以就不要遺棄我啊~哈~
會看中文的就看吧 不會看的話就....改次吧 呵呵呵

回憶....
我對“回憶”這兩個字好反感哦= =

想到有一天 有個老朋友問我 你還記得你小學的朋友嗎？你認識他/她嗎？還記得他們的名嗎？
.........
（1小時候）
我答：怎麽辦..他們是誰啊？我都不熟也..怪了..一點影響都沒有！（手在桌子畫圈圈）
老朋友說：....你以前還很常跟他們說話的叻 天啊 怎麽囘事？！

我怎麽懂怎麽囘事？？我真的就不認識嘛...（哭）
對不起啊 小學同學！！嗚嗚嗚..我大約90%的小學同學都不認得了 除了那些中學還在同班或同校的就免談了 肯定認得你們啦>"<

還 要多加報料：中學form4和form5的同班同學們！！對不起啊...>"<..請原諒我......我也有40%的人都忘記名字了 尤其是和我座位遠一些的= =..（那是理由啦） 哈哈..看到照片至少還記得有你們叻..馬來人的名 100%忘記了!反正他們也看不懂啦 hehehe~（奸笑） 所以現在開始做筆記....以後就不會忘記了吧？我希望叻~哈

一，從A level “混”在一起的朋友們開始好了:

（有些是有時才一起混的XD）混什麽？就混時間啊XD

1,chee sing - 他簡直就是我的哥哥啦！

2,phang yih - 你好宅哦！哈哈 現在的我也差不多了啦~（哭）

3,wan lee - 她唱歌好棒的味！還是很想念她和cheesing天天吵架的臉..常常都在看戯（茶）

4,pei lin - 她呢..現在在一個好遠好遠的地方讀書了咯..我會想念妳的！>"<

5,cong - 你人不錯哦，也只有你懂我其實沒那麽害羞拉 哈。好想你哦！以後要一起出來喝茶哦~！

6,qian - 我覺得早睡應該會幫你比較容易認路吧？哈哈 所以早睡吧 對身體也比較好 =]

7,victoria - 好久沒看到你了叻？（她應該會看中文吧？？）

8,jonathan - 這個人..常常和我在班上吵的！！可是還是跟他很好叻..兄弟！！>"<

9,nicholas - hoho..how are u lately??thanks for all the wonderful songs..haha..they really make my day..:)

10,keng shin?? - 不懂怎麽拚他的名 哈哈 可是他是cong的男朋友。人挺好的 可是我幾乎沒跟他說過話吧XD

11,wai kit - 叛徒！！交了女朋友，我們都忘記了！！可惡！（踢）

12,boon han - 你好樣的啊你..讀了1學期就跟我說休學= =囘檳城去了..那時我真的超悶的 真想訂機票飛去檳城殺了你！哈XD

13,kang yao? - 你哦？....(希望他自己接）XD

14,miss ho -我們的專業bio老師...也常常和我們一起鬼混XD..老師幾時一起玩Dota阿？哈

二，A level同班同學:(include those who is in here from the start)

1,phang yih - ...

2,wai kit - ...

3,jonathan - ...

4,beh - 幾時還有空 做你車 陪你閒聊阿？XD

5, nicholas - ...

6,andy - 你在班上超少説話的！考試的時候是你第一次和我說話也 你人蠻好的阿 不懂你最近如何？

7,reavin - u know,u are always our best monitor..why u leave us??!!!...>"<

8,charlie - 去當兵中...(我愛我國..韓國！韓國！嘿嗅嘿嗅~~！殺！！）..囧

9,jane - I been really nice to you compare to everyone in the class..dunno why..haha..i like ur blog actually..:P..nice friend..

10,chor yin - 我們好像沒說過很多話吧？哈哈 可是還記得上次數學presentation 我上去還呆呆的（丑）

11,ying hui - 你頭髮燙直真的很美哦~（真心）

12,ee cheng - 雖然很少跟你説話 可是 功課不會時你是幫我最多的！！還有phaik yuan老師！謝謝你們XD

13,yen luan - hey..很高興認識你...lol..XD

14,phaik yuan - 還是對不起,我一輩子都不會忘記那天的..還有一輩子都不會忘記你的名字了！哈

15,janice - 最近如何？

16,sue wah - 以後在澳洲 有空一起出去玩吧~

17,xing ern - 在班裏 也只有你會跟我說onlinegames,哪個韓國日本明星之類的 哈哈 真懷念啊 =]

18,jacqueen - hey???????hey??????

19,silvia - I do miss the time when u are beside me teaching me chemistry experiment..haha..thanks....>"<

20,suit won - 味？最近都在干嘛？

21,jacinta - hello？

22,melissa - 無言...(對不起啦 真的沒話説嘛 哈哈）

23,mei yee - where are u now??studying dentist??

24,chuen ling - india??soon??

25,yoonah - Hey,thanks for the gift that u gave us..:)

26,boon han - 看到你的名 還是想罵你！！！可惡！！！XD

三，英文補習那裏的朋友（除了我姐姐以外的）：

1,teacher - 老師啊...對不起 我都不認真XD

2,jane - 其實我一點也沒忘記你哦~哈 加油！相信你一定能的 =)

3,Sarah - 我沒怪你不認得我哦。因爲補習那裏也太多人了 你沒看到 也是難免的啊 會看到加上記得也是奇跡了.真的 哈

4,windboyz - = =..真的沒問過你的名..哈哈 可是..你還是現在的頭髮好看多了（實話）..會被揍吧？XD

今天就說到這裏吧..我超級累了= =

明天繼續 中學的回憶吧..